I’m super overwhelmed right now. At any given moment, someone is crying, peeing, puking, climbing, or needing a nap or a diaper or to be fed…and that’s just the babies. Add 3 teens and a tween on top of that, and that means there’s also someone usually needing a ride somewhere, money for something, help with homework, or a referee for their latest disagreement. With a large family in a place with a crazy high cost of living, I’m constantly planning and budgeting to make sure all the bills are paid, the gas tanks are full (ok, halfway full) and making meal plans and prepping so I don’t spend too much at the grocery store.
I haven’t slept through the night in almost a year. I’ve had one pedicure and the only new clothes I’ve really bought for myself were horrifically frumpy maternity clothes for my very unexpected last pregnancy. I havent cut my hair in 3.5 years so I’ve learned every variation of the mom bun I can and rock it daily.
I have one kid with epilepsy and one with anxiety. Two of my kids are homeschooled. My 2.5 year old is a fearless adventurer (what that actually means is that she never stops getting into things and making messes-and her listening skills are not the finest).
Oh… I also own a business that I run from home and need to fit in 20-30 of work hours a week to keep afloat.
So sometimes I have these days where I am so overwhelmed that I just freeze. Most days I do a bit of crying. It’s usually planned crying since I don’t have time to stop and cry, so I think about when I may be able to go to the bathroom all by myself or even take a bath and save up my mommy meltdown for that time. Hey, whatever works!
It’s so much that I don’t even know where to start or how to prioritize. Some days it’s so much that I feel like I can’t even do it at all. Days where I’d give anything to just hide for a day. Just let someone else do it for one day, snuggle up in bed with the dvr or a good book and eat and sleep and watch tv. Sounds amazing!
Fortunately I have a sure fire, guaranteed, 100% reliable way to get through the tough times. And I know I am overwhelmingly blessed.
But for now, I have a baby to nurse and put to bed, a toddler who needs a nap, a downstairs to clean, and a custom order to finish and ship. So stay tuned!